Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Her counts went up a tiny bit today. It looks like she is going to slowly start coming up. I am hoping for a miracle.......out of her by Sunday!!! All I can do is hope!!!
She is feeling ok....threw up dinner tonight but I think it is because she is so tired. So.....off to try to get her to bed.
Love,
Kristen
Monday, September 28, 2009
Our friend Elijah returned today to start Bone Marrow Transplant (posted a picture of him with Taylor). Elijah will be the first Downs Syndrome child to receive a Bone Marrow Transplant at Phoenix Children's Hospital. As you can imagine, his parents are extremely stressed and scared. Please add Elijah to your prayers. He has 6 days of chemo and then he will start transplant. We pray for a safe, speedy transplant for Elijah.
Still trying to figure out how to balance things since Savannah is no longer able to visit. At least before, Taylor and I would see her for an hour or two a week. Now, I will only see her on the weekends and Taylor won't see her until we go home. We miss her so much already!!
That's all for tonight....have a great week.
Love,
Kristen
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Please also pray for Aleeya. She is in her final round of chemotherapy. She has spiked a fever, so please pray that it is just a simple fever and nothing more!! We love you Aleeya and Athena.
Love,
Kristen
I traveled up to Flagstaff on Saturday for Dawson's funeral. It was easily one of the hardest days of my life. His celebration of life was beautiful, inspirational, and sad. It was so amazing to see how many people were touched by Dawson. After hearing many stories, I truly understand how he got the nickname "Awesome Dawson!!" My heart continues to break for the Merrick family. I want to thank the Merrick's for allowing me to be part of their journey......I am just so devastated at how it ended.
Before going up on Saturday, I tried explaining to Taylor what had happened to Dawson. Obviously, she doesn't really understand (being only 3 1/2) but when I called her on Saturday to check in, she asked me "Mommy, did you see Dawson flying in the clouds?" I thought that was perfect......yes, Dawson is flying in the clouds and I truly believe he is going to watch over Taylor and help her get better. Taylor asking me this was very hard......
I really want to thank Mark for helping me through Saturday. I am so glad you were there.....
There is much more that I could say about Dawson but it is just so hard. Not only do I feel so much sadness for his family, but it really hits hard because of Taylor......please pray for Taylor and Dawson's family.
Love,
Kristen
Thursday, September 24, 2009
We did receive some disappointing news today. Phoenix Children Hospital will be closing to all children under the age of 12 at 5:00am on Saturday due to the upcoming respiratory/flu season. So....Savannah will not be able to visit any longer. We have decided to have her spend the day at the hospital with Taylor and I tomorrow because after that she probably won't see Taylor for 2 -3 weeks. I am so sad that my babies won't be able to see each other. I have tried explaining it to Taylor but she doesn't understand.
I will be enjoying watching Taylor and Savannah spend time together and then will be going home for the weekend. I am driving up to Flagstaff for Dawson Merrick's funeral on Saturday. I probably won't post again until I get back on Sunday night (unless there is a need.)
Have a great weekend.
Love,
Kristen
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Now we wait.....I am thinking we probably have about 3 more weeks this round!!! My cousin stopped by today and I ran to the store and it was pure heaven breathing fresh air!!! The days creep by in this place. Luckily the nurses are all so great and help pass the time.
Hope you are all doing well. Thank you for your continued prayers and support.
Love,
Kristen
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Hopefully she will feel a little better tomorrow.....
Love,
Kristen
Monday, September 21, 2009
We have had a long day and she is really nauseated from the anesthesia....will post more tomorrow.
Thanks,
Kristen
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Right now we are still waiting for Taylor's blood levels to get to zero. Today will be her last day of "freedom." Tomorrow she will be confined to her room for the duration of this visit. I am thinking this round is going to be extra long. Taylor hasn't even hit zero and she usually stays at zero for about 2 weeks. Then it takes about 1 1/2 weeks for her to go back up.....! We are already on Day 12 of this round.....it is going to be a long one!!
Many of you have emailed or texted about visiting Taylor. Yes, she is open to visitors again. Because respiratory and flu season are starting, they have asked us to be extra careful regarding exposure to Taylor. So.....for those of our friends at work (Takeda), the doctors are concerned about you being exposed to so many germs in the doctors offices. Moving forward, if you are planning to visit Taylor, you must change your work clothes and shoes before coming to see her. I know this sounds silly but there are so many germs on your clothes and shoes from the doctor offices. For our many friends that work at CBI, they have also asked for the same paramenters. If you could please change out of the clothes and shoes you wore to school before you come visit Taylor. I know this must sound absolutely crazy to all of you......and we are sorry for any inconvenience this causes you if you visit. We are just trying to be extra careful and keep Taylor infection free. If it makes any of you feel better, Sean and Savannah have to change before coming to see Taylor also. As in the first 2 rounds, we are not having any children visit Taylor.....too risky. We really do want to continue having you all visit and again apologize for the "craziness." We thank you in advance for sticking to the recommendations of Taylor's oncologists.
Finally, I am still so very sad about our friends Donn, Audra, and Delaney Merrick. We continue to pray for all of you. Dawson is missed every moment of every day.
Have a great week.
Love,
Kristen
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Our thoughts and prayers go out to Donn, Audra,and Delaney.....we are so sorry for your loss.
Love,
Kristen
Friday, September 18, 2009
Taylor did have a better day....she is feeling better and that is all that matters!!!
I am off to my house for the weekend. Will post more when I get back.
Have a great weekend.
Love,
Kristen
Thursday, September 17, 2009
I did the radiothon today and was much more emotional that I thought I would be. I spent most of the night thinking about all the things I wanted to say and didn't get any of them out. I think that each day is so busy with Taylor that I don't give myself much time to truly think about the severity of Taylor's situation. Today as I was in the cafeteria surrounded by the volunteers, it hit me that WOW this is truly my "new" life. More importantly, it hit me that again that my daughter has leukemia.......why Taylor? I ask myself this every day....why not me????? Anyway, today was really hard. I am glad that I did the radiothon and thank everyone who was able to donate to the hospital....thank you.
Taylor and Aleeya are having a great time playing in the room right now....I will post an adorable picture of them rocking in the chair together. Because she didn't get to bed until 10:30 last night, it is time to try to get her to bed....I need peace!!!
I wanted to quickly thank my cousin, Kerri. She showed up in the cafeteria today at 4:00 to watch the radiothon. During the interview when I started getting upset, she jumped over and held my hand and provided much needed support. Thank you Kerri....I love you!!!
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers this week and always!!
Love,
Kristen
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Until the rash in her eyes is gone, we will not be having any outside visitors. It is just to risky to Taylor. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. Yesterday was so scary for me and so hard for Taylor because she felt so bad. Hoping tomorrow will be better. Taylor's counts are dropping each day and we will most likely be confined to the room by Friday...so much fun!!!
As long as Taylor is doing ok, I will still be going down to the cafeteria tomorrow at 4:20 for the radiothon. Please listen in if you can. It will be on KTAR (AM in Arizona) or you can listen in at www.ktar.com.
On a side note, please pray for our friends Dawson and Kate. Dawson received a 2nd round of bone marrow yesterday and is still in ICU. Kate is having a MRI today to determine if the chemo has helped her brain tumor. They desperately need our prayers.
Thanks,
Kristen
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
They gave her another dose of Benadryl at 6:30 and it knocked her out. Her previous rash has now come back and is covering her face and body. At least she is sleeping.
The plan now in the morning is to move her to the 3rd floor into an isolation room. She will receive a nasal swab to test for 9 different viruses. She and I will stay in isolation until the virus test either grows something or doesn't grow something. If it does, she will be given the necessary treatment and if it doesn't show anything, we will hopefully be moved back to the 2nd floor (we would stay in isolation either way for a couple of days). Her eyes are really painful to even look at....you can just tell how much pain she is in. She can't even watch TV because the light hurts her too much.
The doctor has asked for no visitors until we get this all figured out. Because her body can't fight off any infections, we have to be extra careful right now. Unfortunately, Sean, Savannah, or Grandma are not even going to be able to visit until this is figured out.
So...please pray...this is very scary and she is not doing very well.
I will post more as I get more information. Thanks to Sheri for sending out a message to everyone today.
Love,
Kristen
IMPORTANT MESSAGE
Monday, September 14, 2009
She did eat today...yeah!! We also changed rooms. Taylor and her roommate, Aleeya, are back in the "suite"....the big room on the floor...yeah, they were both happy about that.
No time now, will post more tomorrow...she wants me to lay with her....
Love,
Kristen
Sunday, September 13, 2009
I wanted to let all of you know that I have been asked to share Taylor's story during a live radio feed from the cafeteria at PCH on Thursday. Below, please find the information that I have received on the event:
- It is the ninth year for this radiothon fundraiser at Phoenix Children’s Hospital. There’s no better way to let our community know what a special place Phoenix Children’s is than through the eyes and experiences of our patients and families.
- Radiothon will broadcast live on KTAR’s 92.3 FM, 620 am, and stream live on their website at www.ktar.com
- I am scheduled at 4:20 pm on Thursday, September 17th.
If you are able and interested, please listen in. The radiothon will go all day on the 16th and 17th.
That's all for tonight...need to get her something else for the itching!!
Have a great week.
Love,
Kristen
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I talked with one of her doctors this morning and asked for a slight change in her Zofran (nausea medication). During the past 2 rounds it was given every 4 hours around the clock. For some reason this round, it is only give as one large dose, one time/day. I was thinking that maybe it isn't working as well this way because she is so nauseated. So....the Zofran is being changed back to the way it was. I hope this might make a difference and she might possibly eat a little better.
She enjoyed a visit from her good friend Maggie Siegel. Maggie is another leukemia patient that has come into our live....they are an amazing family and have helped us so much. Maggie is done with treatment and doing well. Maggie's mom, Leslie, has been great to me and helps me get through this horrible ordeal!!! I will post a picture of Taylor and Maggie riding in the wagon.
Grandma and Savannah came down and Grandma is staying with Taylor tonight. I enjoyed a couple of hours with Savannah and came home to a huge dose of reality. I signed Taylor up for the Make a Wish program and I received a letter today saying that Taylor has been accepted and will become a Wish Child. While this is great and Taylor will get an amazing wish granted, this is very bittersweet to me. This only reminds me that Taylor has a life threatening illness.....WOW!!! I don't mean this to sound ungrateful, I just never thought I would be participating in Make A Wish for my child. I am pretty sure that Taylor will "wish" for a trip to Disneyland and I am so excited that this might happen. I just "wish" that we were going to Disneyland for "other" reasons. This is just so hard.....
Going to try to catch up on mindless TV....will post again tomorrow night when I get back to PCH.
Quick side note....Toby - I read your post, please stop by the next time you are down visiting Leo....would love to meet you.
Thanks,
Kristen
Friday, September 11, 2009
She woke up early today and ate a good breakfast. She hasn't eaten well since we have gotten back to the hospital so I was very excited. Unfortunately, she has refused to take another bite of food since breakfast. The doses of her chemo are much larger and stronger than the previous rounds and they seem to be hitting her really hard. She complained of a headache so I tried giving her Tylenol around 6:00 pm and she started throwing up. She feel asleep at 6:30 and is still sleeping. I pray that she will sleep through the night...she is very tired. Her chemo rash has spread down to her legs and she looks fairly red. Almost all of her eye lashes have fallen out and her hair is almost all gone....she truly looks like a cancer patient.
I had another dose of reality tonight.....there was a "code" on the other side of Taylor's floor and the RN said that it doesn't look as if the child will make it.....WOW...that is alot to take in. It really reminds me how scary all of this is.
I have had the opportunity to make another new friend on Taylor's floor. A little boy named Leo Weber was admitted to PCH a couple of weeks ago with Stage 4 Lymphoma. He goes to the JCC for preschool and a bunch of our friends at the preschool know his family. I found them and his mom and I have become fast friends. Please add Leo and his family to your prayers.
Taylor did have one bit of happiness today. Her BFF at PCH, Aleeya, is back and we are now all roommates again. This is Aleeya's last round of treatment. Please pray for a good round for Aleeya.
Have a great weekend.
Love,
Kristen and Taylor
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Her roommate from last night moved out (yeah) of the room today and we are now in with a very sweet girl who is a year younger that Taylor....they are getting along very well. Her favorite night RN is taking care of her so she is doing everything she can to stay awake to see her!!! She is VERY tired and complaining that her stomach hurts again.....so much fun!!
The hardest part of today was her asking me over and over again "when can we go home....I don't want to stay here." I hate telling her that we will be here for weeks and weeks!!!
Have to run....she is looking extremely pale....think she might throw up!!
More tomorrow...
Love,
Kristen
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
We have had a really long day today. Her bone marrow aspiration was at 1:30. We got admitted to PCH around 5:30 and came up to her room. The roommate situation is less than ideal but we will hopefully change rooms tomorrow. Her roommate is a 15 year old boy who watches TV with the volume full blast. For some reason (they don't tell me for confidentiality reasons), Taylor is not allowed to use the bathroom in the room because he is using it. So....we have a bedside commode!! She is less than happy about that and hates using it. I am praying we do actually get moved tomorrow.
She has been throwing up for about 3 hours. The medication they gave her today for the bone marrow aspiration really made her sick this time. I also had them give her pain medication because her back always hurts so bad....that could be making her sick also. Welcome back!!! I finally have her settled down and she is watching TV (she has been awake since 6:30 am with no nap!!). So...it has been a really long day!!!
Her chemotherapy will go for 5 days this round. Most patients have a harder time with this round of treatment, but every child responds differently. Hopefully Taylor will do OK. She is already asking me "when do we get to go home???"
That is all for tonight....I am exhausted. Thank you all so much for your prayers these last 3 weeks. Please continue to pray that this round is not to terrible for Taylor.
Love,
Kristen
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Each school day, 46 children are diagnosed with cancer.
One in 330 children will develop cancer by age 20.
Each year in the U.S. over 12,600 children are diagnosed with cancer.
Although the 5 year survival rate is steadily increasing, one quarter of children diagnosed with cancer will die 5 years from the time of diagnosis.
Cancer remains the number one disease killer of America's children - more than Cystic Fibrosis, Muscular Dystrophy, Asthma and AIDS combined.
80% of children have metastatic disease at time of diagnosis as compared to only 20% of adults.
There are currently more than 270,000 childhood cancer survivors in the U.S.
Late effects of childhood cancer treatment are common in survivors, and approximately one-third are moderate to severe.
Please continue to pray for Taylor. Also, please pray for our good friends, Alleya Guerreva, Dawson Merrick, Elijah Rubio, and Kate Mackrae.
Love,
Kristen
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I know this post is probably not what everyone wanted to hear because I think the majority of our friends are just focusing on the fact that Taylor went from 8 percent to less than 6 percent. Yes, she did drop but the time frame that she is dropping in is very concerning. I guess all we can do is continue to pray.....
Thank you for your support. Again, I wanted to thank all of friends (especially Tom Margie and Jessica Lilley) for their amazing dedication and hard work on the golf tournament.......we have amazing friends!!!
Love,
Kristen